I'm a liar...sorry

Sipping a steaming hot cup of vanilla chai and laxative teas, while staring at a small pile of orange peels and my stomach rumbling because I purged.  My throat is dry..sore...and I can't seem to understand why I can't stop myself.  The uncontrollable urge..burying me.  I feel as if I am about to go insane. Finals are coming up too and if I don't do well in them, well lets just hope that doesn't happen. I feel the need to eat in the evening. The worst possible time to eat anything at all. All I want to do now is cause pain...

I think she is the most beautiful person I have seen. I want to look exactly like her.