My birthday is on the 25th of this month...5 days away.
This week's goal, Birthday fast.
This will be most difficult since my family is having a party on Tuesday, and they will have tons of food. Oh please keep me strong! If I can get through this week and make it to Saturday I will reward myself, birthday shopping. This is what I am telling myself anyway.
I feel like I am suffering slowing inside though..my throat is sore, my stomach is bulging and my hair is falling out. It sucks that I know what I am doing to my body is wrong and harmful but i can't stop myself from doing it anyway. I can control how I eat so I try to not eat at all, only to binge and purge later. My core negative thoughts control my actions regarding my body. Dear agony, please make me disappear.
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